… is a strange and frustrating business, despite my colleague’s beautiful vine and wire analogy.
My heart gives a little leap of excitement each time I think I’ve ‘got it’, only to find that what I thought I’d got won’t work, because something else comes to light as a result of what I thought I’d got.
I would love to be able to look on this process as a puzzle: (image from the Crafty Puzzle Company), as I’ve heard Peter Matthiessen say that he does. I’ve also heard him say that while meditating – he practices Zen Buddhism – the answer to a plot puzzle sometimes comes to him, which is frustrating because he can’t get up and write it down. But when he told his Zen Master this, the Master simply smiled and said, ‘Well of course you must go and write it down.’
I admit that I am less frustrated with Hope Remains (working title for the novel that was, once, a biography of my great-grandmother) than I was at this stage with Speaking of Love because I know, having got there once before, that the puzzle will resolve itself eventually (or, I will resolve it). But I am impatient to write before I’ve done enough planning even though I know, from bitter experience, that to write too soon means writing for miles down the wrong road.